This Week

I’ve been watching the Sex and the City movies the last few days. It takes me more than one day to finish them because I have kids and they are SUPER inappropriate. I have to stop them every time the kids come in the room.

It’s 7am and no body is awake yet! That is basically unheard of in this.  house, all 3 kids are early risers.

Usually I use this time to clean because I have 3 kids and my house is always a mess, but today I decided to give myself a break. I’m eating Fruity Pebble knock offs and I’m watching an adult movie that I don’t have to pause every 5 minutes…

There is heaven on Earth.

I kid, lol. I probably gained 5 lbs from one bowl of cereal and my house is still a mess so not really heaven.

This week is a typical one, school, organized playdates, lyra, judo/jujitsu/kickboxing, laundry, cleaning, cooking, scheduling doctor’s appointments, finishing a piece for a customer and all the other things I add to my life unnecessarily. And all of these are done on broken toes. 3 broken toes.

Yeah… 3 on two feet. Long story short, I rebroke the toes that I broke this summer and then broke a toe on my other foot by trying to protect my already broken toes and dropping a heavy metal object on ANOTHER toe. And let me tell you what… they HURT. They hurt more this time than they did last time.

Some of the unnecessary things I have added to my list, my DIY Halloween decorations and a blog about them, we make crafts for a hospice(this is extra but in my opinion necessary), NaNoWriMo(but I LOVE IT) and walking a 5k… plans were made before my toes decided to look like pudding, and VOTING!!

These are some of the things I have added to my plate and though they are not actually necessary, I WANT to do them.

The problem that I face is because I WANT to do them they get pushed back to the background OR what I have done this week ignore some of the things like cleaning to do them. I don’t have enough time in my life, haha.

Making a ghost with cheesecloth
A different way to make a ghost
Cute crafts
My customers piece
Trying to make hot chocolate bombs!
Performed my civic duty

I said duty…

Have a great weekend! What do you guys have planned

Prime Day

Christmas shopping has started in our household. Thanks to Prime Day!!

I can’t go into what I bought my husband but I can talk about the kids. Well mostly Kenz benefited from Prime Day shopping.

She is already struggling between a girl and a young woman. Most of the items she requested were clothing, hair stuff and some craft items.

I know that she is super crafty and does not know how to entertain herself so I got her

I may return the squishies and get a different set

She is really into hair and makeup so I’ve been slowly building her supply

She also got some makeup brushes!

Tobias got a couple of items, I  am trying to get colorful and educational things for him.

My favorite items were some decor for around the house. I am slowly decorating the house and making it a home. My absolute FAVORITE things are pictures. I don’t know why but I love pictures of family and friends displayed on the walls!

So I got the 4 level picture hanger and 3 shelves to display wedding photos and mementos.  I only have the photos up so far.

I LOVE this

We got married at a vineyard so I covered the twine with dollar store vines and I think it looks fantastic!!

Some thoughts on Prime Day… I hate their organization or lack there of. It takes real time to scroll through their deals even within the categories they have them divided into. So if you are prime shopping, be prepared to scroll. I love how efficient they are, even with such a busy shopping day, I still got most of my items within 2 days. Lightning deals are actually my favorite, they have lower prices and you can put them on a watchlist to get notified when the sales are active. If you see something put it in your cart and buy it. I lost more than one item because I kept looking, they only let you keep the sale price for 15 minutes after it’s on your cart. If you keep track of how much you spend write the sale price down because once it’s gone, if you buy more than one item you don’t get to see the sale price again.

Well that’s it, be prepared to use these tips for Black Friday and Cyber Monday!!

May the odds be ever in your favor!!

Did you get anything good on Prime Day?

Monday and weightloss

How was your Monday?? I spilled coffee on a book I’m reading about cleaning my house….

I am down 6lbs since Sept 24. I know that doesn’t sound like a lot, but for me it’s great! To gain weight all I have to do is breathe… to lose weight I need to make sacrifices to the Gods.

I did the free two week trial of Noom. Noom is a weightloss plan, there is an app. It is very involved, but basically it’s counting calories. They do have daily lessons that help you get into the psychology of losing weight and it is pretty useful info. If that is something that you think you need check out their website.

But I didn’t continue with them after the trial, I did lose 2lbs a week like they said, but I can count calories without a lesson.

So I am getting through my day on 1400 calories, which should be about 1.5lbs lost a week. It took getting used to, having that amount of calories in one day. I got fat because I ate ALL the calories, lol. There were days when I was dizzy and not feeling great but it has evened out, I can go to sleep without eating all of those calories and feel fine.

I am not working out right now, I am concentrating on my food intake right now. I know there are those who do both, but I know me best! I am wearing my FitBit and getting in as many steps as possible each day. I have even started watching tv while pacing.

All together I feel great and I am hoping that I can keep it up. In a couple of months I’ll start walking again and slowly build up the exercise routine.

How was your day? Do you have anything exciting planned for this week??

Feeling Overwhelmed

I was supposed to do a blog post on Weds for Bonnie’s Book Club. If you were anticipating that, I apologize. I’ve been a little overwhelmed.

I have been biting off more than I can chew lately, it’s a pretty constant problem in my life. I constantly want to go go go but I put so much on my plate, then my depression kicks in so I get NOTHING done. My anxiety then let’s me know what a worthless POS I am and we go round and round.

BUT some great things are slowly happening… the kids and I got some Halloween decorations up

We got some much needed yard work done, we chopped down 5 trees and sprayed the weeds, I might need to do that again.

I have lost 6lbs!! I know that is a seemingly minor victory BUT for me it’s pretty huge.

Homeschool is going… ok… ish… there are great days and days when the kids and I scream at each other. We finally got to the library (our local is closed for renovations). The closest one we can go to is 45min away… and it is in a temporary building. But it was great to get new books!

I have done SO MANY LOADS OF LAUNDRY this week. I gave clothes away, donated some can goods.

I have been working really hard to get my life in order, but I still have SO MUCH TO DO.

That’s where I am this Friday night. I hope you all have a fantastic weekend!! Got any definite plans? We have 90% chance of rain so we are staying in.

Keeping “you”rself in motherhood

A post has caught my attention on Facebook. It is about a mom who finally has some free time without husband or kids and she doesn’t know what to do with herself.

What is fun to a mom?

Mothers tend to make ourselves martyrs. It is a harsh truth, but it is a truth none the less. We spend our entire life taking care of others and barely give ourselves 5 minutes of free time. It is “expected” of us, sort of… but not really.

We, as mothers tend to put so much pressure on ourselves because we want to keep up with what other moms are doing; or seem to be doing on social media. Working moms will spend any free minute they have “making up” the time they spend away from their kids. Stay at home moms’ lives literally revolve around the home and family, so we try to make sure we are “earning our keep” so to speak.

We want to make sure that we are not being out done by our friends on Facebook or we are constantly trying to be as good as our God of a mother…. I seriously will put myself in an early grave trying to be as good of a mom/wife as my mom.

I was reading an honest post of a mom on one of my homeschool groups talking about everything that she has to do every day and asking how we all do it. I commented that I cry a lot in the shower (which is only a small exaggeration) while others expressed sympathy but said they were also barely holding it together. One mom had the “audacity” to say that she actually gives herself free time…. what the hell(lol)?? Other moms were not nice to her and once again WHY????

Why do we as women/moms not allow ourselves to just chill the eff out sometimes? And why would you get upset that someone else ACTUALLY takes care of themselves? Is it just jealousy that you feel you can’t do that or do you not know how.

I forget sometimes to take care of myself, I forget to eat (how am I obese), I forget to shower, I forget to change my clothes, I forget that I am allowed to have emotions, I forget that I was a human before kids and so I am allowed to be a human still. Some of my things are also because of depression, but sometimes they are both.

I can’t tell another mom what to do to relax. But I came up with a list of things I like to do to keep “Bonnie” in my life.

I play Sims. I love that damn video game.

I send my kids to their room for some “mommy time” and I watch movies or TV shows that they can’t watch.

I listen/ read books.

I blog or write… I LOVE TO WRITE.

I craft, so many things.

I plan different things, diets, exercise plans, decorations for whatever holiday, trips that we will probably never take.

I take a shower, shave and yes, sometimes I really do cry.

Sometimes I do nothing. I just sit on the couch and do literally nothing.

These are just some of the things that I do to keep my old self in my new life. I think that it is so important to remember that we are individuals outside of being a mom.

To the wonderful moms that comment on my blog, I always appreciate your opinions and advice. What do you do to keep your mental health? Do you take time our for yourself? Do you sometimes forget?

It’s the most wonderful time of the year!!

Yeah… I’m one of THOSE people! I love fall/Christmas, their existence makes my daily life worth living.

Fall Festivals, Octoberfest, Renaissance festival, caramel apples, pumpkin pie, Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, decorating… did I mention decorating?

Well we started our fall adventures yesterday with a trip to a localish farm for a corn maze and various other fun things.

The kids got to “mine” gems, they had a messy blast and got some beautiful souvenirs

They need to be scrubbed

They had some pretty amazing smelling food, we didn’t eat any because both my husband and I are watching what we eat. This is a tough time of year for that, lol.

So that was our first activity of the season, but it won’t be our last. We start decorating for Halloween today!

Do you love fall? Do you have any family traditions?

Sleuth Saturday

Introducing Bonnie’s Book Club!! We will be discussing the different books that I am reading/listening to.

My goal is to post 2 books a month, one on Saturday, which will specifically be a Sherlock Holmes story and then another book on a Weds. I will share ahead of time which book will be discussing so if you want to read it with me!

As previously blogged, I have become an Amazon associate, so certain blogs will have links and if you purchase from my link I will receive a small percentage. I will share where I got the book, library, Amazon, Facebook Marketplace. Goodwill, or my mom.

I have also joined Audible because being a busy mom sometimes sitting down and reading a book is difficult, BUT letting my echo dot read the book out loud while I clean is SUPER EASY!! So audible is $14.99 a month and they give you a free audiobook!! So of course I bought the Complete Stories of Sherlock Holmes and saved almost $50.

One thing that I don’t necessarily love is not being able to see the words when I am actually sitting down and listening…. I KNOW… never satisfied. But I bought my husband this book from Barnes and Noble a couple of years ago so I read along sometimes.

SO today we are talking about A Study in Scarlet, originally published in 1887. This is the first story where John Watson meets Sherlock Holmes and follows him around while Sherlock solves a crime. This is a two part story; the first part consists of Sherlock solving the crime and the second part explains why the murders happened at all. The first time I listened to the story I was very confused because the story was happening in England and then all of a sudden we are listening to two dying people in the desert.

If you are going to read the story and want to be surprised you should stop reading now. I will be revealing all.

Have you stopped reading???

Ok so the murdered in this story is a cabbie, he is avenging the lives of his love and her father!

Lucy and John Ferrier were stranded in the desert and dying when a caravan of displaced Mormons happened upon them. With the promise of following their religion and rules the Mormons saved them both and brought them to their promised land (Utah). John Ferrier (the father) thrived in Utah and became a very rich man, but he never really believed in the Mormon religion. His daughter Lucy falls in love with a man, Jefferson Hope, who is not a Mormon and they become engaged.

When word spreads that Lucy is engaged to be wed to a “gentile” Ferrier is visited by the prophet or chief of their village and is told that his daughter will chose between 2 Mormon men (sons of the Holy Four). Though violence and death are not spoken directly it is implied.

Trying to save his daughter from a miserable arranged marriage they both escape with Jefferson Hope, trying to get to Nevada. They have to take an extremely perilous journey and unfortunately the Mormons catch up to them while Jefferson Hope is hunting for food. They kill John Ferrier immediately and take Lucy back to Salt Lake City, she is forced to marry one of the sons of the elders and within a month she is dead.

Jefferson Hope is obviously enraged and tries to kill the two men most responsible for his anguish several times. They both live in fear for years, they actually leave the Mormon church and head back East. Jefferson Hope has to abandon his vengeance mission for several years but he starts stalking them. He finds them by accident but he is immediately recognized and the two men flee. Hope’s search for the men takes years, over 2 continents and many countries.

He finally gets them in England. First he finds the man who married his Lucy just for her father’s fortune and did nothing to prevent her death. He gives the man a pill after revealing who he was. The man dies of poison in an abandoned home, with only his murderer to watch. Hope then finds the other man, who actually killed John Ferrier, at his hotel. Hope wakes him up early in the morning with a knife to his throat and tries to give him the poison, but a fight ensure and he is stabbed to death instead.

Sherlock Holmes had of course figured out the “how” of the murders before we are even introduced to Jefferson Hope and John and Lucy Ferrier. He actually kills a dying dog to prove his point…. probably a normal thing back in 1887. He even knows the “who” and tricks the cabbie into coming to his flat with 2 policeman there so he can be arrested.

Jefferson Hope is arrested but is never punished for the crimes he committed though, he dies of a aneurism that very night in jail.

So that is the story, greatly abridged, but that is the basis of what happens. I really enjoyed reading how Holmes’ mind works and meeting characters I am familiar with from the TV show and the movies.

On October 7th I will be talking about A Simple Favor, both the movie and the book. On October 24th we will talk about The Hound of Baskerville.

You can click this link to sign up for a free 30-day trial with Audible and get a free audiobook that you get to keep even if you don’t sign up for the full membership! And if you upgrade to the Premium Plus you get one audiobook a month!

The book is called ‘The Complete Stories of Sherlock Holmes’ so you can listen along with me!

Click this link for the Physical Book!

Click this link for the Audiobook if you already have audible!

My Name is….

I have been a stay at home mom for about 3.5 years of the ten years I have been a mom. This is probably the path I will walk for awhile.

To those who are not a SAHM this blog is probably going to come off as whiny. I LOVE my kids as any mom will say, but sometimes I need to be a human person and not just “mom”.

When I was a single mom and working a full time job, missing important moments in my kids lives I would have given anything to be able to be at home with them. Now that I am home 24/7, I miss having my own money and having actual time to myself. Literally a single trip to the grocery store seems like a freaking vacation. A shower that I don’t have company or interruptions is unheard of. I don’t even poop without an audience.

I tried to orchestrate time for myself so I could be home alone, oldest 2 were at a sleepover and I had my husband take the baby to an indoor jump house but he (the baby) fell asleep in the car and they came back home. Immediately upon arriving home baby is awake and completely underfoot. I just wanted a couple of hours to clean the house without distractions. I wasn’t even doing anything fun.

Even as I am writing this I have been interrupted at least 3 times, some how paint got spilled upstairs and I needed to check it out and now my list contains how to get paint out of carpet AND find all the paint—->get rid of it. The baby is not happy that I am sitting at the desk and he is unable to be the center of attention, so he is sitting next to me screaming and crying. My husband is telling me about any funny video or meme he comes across on Facebook or YouTube.

My brain is in constant overload and I am already planning next week. My son was trying to make me feel better and he said, at least tomorrow is Saturday!! What does that mean to me??? More cleaning, laundry and zero downtime, but at least the kids don’t have school and my husband doesn’t have work; so they will all be there to help make MORE of a mess!!

It is funny to think that I was less stressed while working… but that really isn’t it at all. I was even more stressed, but I was an actual person at work. I wasn’t just, “fix my problems, pay attention to me, he hit me, baby crying, the house is a mess, what’s for dinner, when did we change the filters last, are you going to do laundry, you wanna…..?”

And I still don’t want a job outside of the home, I love that I get to be there for all the important moments of my kids lives. I can be more supportive of my husband. I get to homeschool my kids and give them hands on attention, which they desperately need. I can control their learning, in the sense that as my daughter excels I can give her harder material or when my son is struggling I can give him extra time on something.

I am constantly in a battle of sorts in my mind. I love being there but I want more than just being MOM…. my name is Bonnie.

MY NAME IS BONNIE.

I put fake eyelashes on… and immediately took them off

Things are changing

Some things are changing, but I’m hoping it’s all for the better!

Once a month I am going to be releasing a Sleuth Saturday blog to talk about the latest Sherlock Holmes story I have read/listened to.

I am going to be a VIPKID teacher soon, teaching kids in different countries English. I want to financially contribute to our family’s budget and I think the hours will work with my “mom schedule.” I will be blogging about my classroom and what my workday looks like. I’m pretty excited.

Homeschooling is a huge part of my life now, teaching my 2 oldest and entertaining a toddler. My big kids could not be more different, so I’ll definitely be blogging about teaching styles. Also, I have tons of cheap/free resources I would love to share. Homeschooling a child with ADHD and learning disabilities will definitely be an upcoming blog.

I want to post some open and honest blogs about marriage with kids, especially being a combined household. Sometimes lines are iffy and boundaries that need to be respected. Marriage is stressful on it’s own, I want to share some cheap and fun ways to keep it fresh.

I am getting rid of my YouTube channel, it’s just too much right now. I need to focus my energies. But I am still a crafter and a DIYer, so instead of videos I’ll be blogging about them.

I am still working on the business with my mom, we have kind if taken a break to rebrand ourselves. I will definitely be blogging about L&M Unique Creations.

Finally I have become an Amazon Affiliate and when I blog certain things I will include links to what I have purchased. If you use my link towards a purchase I will get a small percentage of the sale. This will be posted on any blog that I use my link.

I think that is about it, we are coming into my favorite months of the year and I am very excited to share blogs with you!!!

My favorite topic

It really isn’t my favorite, but I think I write about it the most.

I have started an exercise program AGAIN…. I will have to go through my blogs to count the number that mention me losing weight or working out. I know it is a lot and as much as I try to pretend that I am ok looking the way I do, I AM NOT…..

So a couple of weeks ago my husband and I went to the vineyard where we were married. It was our first time back and I got dressed up, I wanted to look nice! I put on this blue dress that always made me feel beautiful(skinny) and I put makeup on(I don’t normally). I was dressed to the nines!! I felt amazing and I asked my husband to take pictures of me, I don’t have many pictures of me looking nice.

I thought I was looking great

He sent me the pictures a few days later and the happy bubble that I had created for myself popped. I burst into tears and I started throwing a pity party for myself. I really looked at myself in the mirror and…. gross.

SO once again I am trying working out to lose my belly, back, arm, thigh and any other body part fat. I have started LIIFT4 from Beachbody. I was doing this before I broke my toe in July and I loved it! I have doubled the weight I was using so it is much harder, but I am praying that it will be worth it. I have not gotten to the point where I love working out or crave it like a drug, but I am pushing through the sore muscles and fatigue. My bigger kids are being really supportive and they have done the workouts with me and have tried to help me out around the house because I am exhausted.

My self worth does…

I keep hoping that I can stick with the program because I need to feel better about myself. I know that my  worth isn’t in how I look, but I don’t really care. I want to fit in my clothes, I want to look at pictures of myself and not want to puke, I want to be proud of myself again and I want to be strong! When my husband tells me that I am beautiful I want to believe him.

I am aware that the skinny brat (who thought she was fat) I was before kids is gone, but I would like that fat lump of lard that has replaced her to disappear a little too, lol. This is said with lighthearted intent.

I have filled my phone with motivation

Have you ever lost a large amount of weight? Or finished something that you started multiple times?