Prioritize

I haven’t posted in almost 2 weeks. I have felt a bit overwhelmed and the first things I stop are my creative outlets (which I don’t recommend). When the house is gross and the kids are acting up and the husband walks around with blinders “not seeing” the problems, the last thing I “feel” is being creative.

I haven’t had the energy to do much beyond the necessary, just smile and wave boys… smile and wave.

There is evidence all over the house of things I have attempted to do or clean. The floor streamer in the living room, broom in the dining room, contents of our homeschooling cabinet littered all over because I was going to organize.

That being said I have been spending more time with the kids. We went to the state museum, we’ve been to the park a couple of times and generally we are spending more time outside.

Fell asleep on the way to the park
Throwing paint at canvas
Met a friend at the museum

So life isn’t terrible and I am prioritizing the kids, it gets me through even the worst bout. Sometimes everything gets to be too much and you have to step back and remember what really matters.

I hope you are all well!

How You Doin….

So I am going to do a life update, I feel like a lot has happened since the beginning of March. Matt and I joined a gym transformation challenge. Its 6 weeks, you need to attend at least 4 workouts a week and the workouts are 50mins. They have childcare, which is completely neccessary for me. The workouts are INTENSE but amazing! I have really been enjoying putting in the work.

My husband actually joined the challenge as well! Super proud of him for jumping in with me. Of course, I’m also jealous because he has been having better results than me… despite the fact that I work out more often, constantly on my feet during the day and I eat better. It’s fine, I’m fine…

Just a normal day….

Adding to the working out, I have also been walking. I have done 3 official 5ks so far this year and I have earned medals for walking a certain distance in a certain amount of time

My medals so far this year!

I am super excited to say that we are going to the Vincent Van Gogh exhibit that is working it’s way around the US.

I am and have been obsessed with Vincent Van Gogh for a really long time, particularly Starry Night (basic, I know). But I can’t help it… I have Starry Night leggings, shoes and decor in my house

This is just a taste

Also, one of my besties is coming to the show with us, so that makes it even more special.

She is my cheerleader, always has my back!

In more exciting news, our library has opened back up!! It has been closed for renovations for over a year. And I am happy to say it’s been open for a couple of weeks and we have already been twice.

Some of my current obsessions I am learning about! Matt and I are watching Vikings right now and the show has definitely sparked an interest in learning more.

Well, I think that is all my life right now. I hope everyone is safe and thriving!

This Week

I’ve been watching the Sex and the City movies the last few days. It takes me more than one day to finish them because I have kids and they are SUPER inappropriate. I have to stop them every time the kids come in the room.

It’s 7am and no body is awake yet! That is basically unheard of in this.  house, all 3 kids are early risers.

Usually I use this time to clean because I have 3 kids and my house is always a mess, but today I decided to give myself a break. I’m eating Fruity Pebble knock offs and I’m watching an adult movie that I don’t have to pause every 5 minutes…

There is heaven on Earth.

I kid, lol. I probably gained 5 lbs from one bowl of cereal and my house is still a mess so not really heaven.

This week is a typical one, school, organized playdates, lyra, judo/jujitsu/kickboxing, laundry, cleaning, cooking, scheduling doctor’s appointments, finishing a piece for a customer and all the other things I add to my life unnecessarily. And all of these are done on broken toes. 3 broken toes.

Yeah… 3 on two feet. Long story short, I rebroke the toes that I broke this summer and then broke a toe on my other foot by trying to protect my already broken toes and dropping a heavy metal object on ANOTHER toe. And let me tell you what… they HURT. They hurt more this time than they did last time.

Some of the unnecessary things I have added to my list, my DIY Halloween decorations and a blog about them, we make crafts for a hospice(this is extra but in my opinion necessary), NaNoWriMo(but I LOVE IT) and walking a 5k… plans were made before my toes decided to look like pudding, and VOTING!!

These are some of the things I have added to my plate and though they are not actually necessary, I WANT to do them.

The problem that I face is because I WANT to do them they get pushed back to the background OR what I have done this week ignore some of the things like cleaning to do them. I don’t have enough time in my life, haha.

Making a ghost with cheesecloth
A different way to make a ghost
Cute crafts
My customers piece
Trying to make hot chocolate bombs!
Performed my civic duty

I said duty…

Have a great weekend! What do you guys have planned

Feeling Overwhelmed

I was supposed to do a blog post on Weds for Bonnie’s Book Club. If you were anticipating that, I apologize. I’ve been a little overwhelmed.

I have been biting off more than I can chew lately, it’s a pretty constant problem in my life. I constantly want to go go go but I put so much on my plate, then my depression kicks in so I get NOTHING done. My anxiety then let’s me know what a worthless POS I am and we go round and round.

BUT some great things are slowly happening… the kids and I got some Halloween decorations up

We got some much needed yard work done, we chopped down 5 trees and sprayed the weeds, I might need to do that again.

I have lost 6lbs!! I know that is a seemingly minor victory BUT for me it’s pretty huge.

Homeschool is going… ok… ish… there are great days and days when the kids and I scream at each other. We finally got to the library (our local is closed for renovations). The closest one we can go to is 45min away… and it is in a temporary building. But it was great to get new books!

I have done SO MANY LOADS OF LAUNDRY this week. I gave clothes away, donated some can goods.

I have been working really hard to get my life in order, but I still have SO MUCH TO DO.

That’s where I am this Friday night. I hope you all have a fantastic weekend!! Got any definite plans? We have 90% chance of rain so we are staying in.

My Name is….

I have been a stay at home mom for about 3.5 years of the ten years I have been a mom. This is probably the path I will walk for awhile.

To those who are not a SAHM this blog is probably going to come off as whiny. I LOVE my kids as any mom will say, but sometimes I need to be a human person and not just “mom”.

When I was a single mom and working a full time job, missing important moments in my kids lives I would have given anything to be able to be at home with them. Now that I am home 24/7, I miss having my own money and having actual time to myself. Literally a single trip to the grocery store seems like a freaking vacation. A shower that I don’t have company or interruptions is unheard of. I don’t even poop without an audience.

I tried to orchestrate time for myself so I could be home alone, oldest 2 were at a sleepover and I had my husband take the baby to an indoor jump house but he (the baby) fell asleep in the car and they came back home. Immediately upon arriving home baby is awake and completely underfoot. I just wanted a couple of hours to clean the house without distractions. I wasn’t even doing anything fun.

Even as I am writing this I have been interrupted at least 3 times, some how paint got spilled upstairs and I needed to check it out and now my list contains how to get paint out of carpet AND find all the paint—->get rid of it. The baby is not happy that I am sitting at the desk and he is unable to be the center of attention, so he is sitting next to me screaming and crying. My husband is telling me about any funny video or meme he comes across on Facebook or YouTube.

My brain is in constant overload and I am already planning next week. My son was trying to make me feel better and he said, at least tomorrow is Saturday!! What does that mean to me??? More cleaning, laundry and zero downtime, but at least the kids don’t have school and my husband doesn’t have work; so they will all be there to help make MORE of a mess!!

It is funny to think that I was less stressed while working… but that really isn’t it at all. I was even more stressed, but I was an actual person at work. I wasn’t just, “fix my problems, pay attention to me, he hit me, baby crying, the house is a mess, what’s for dinner, when did we change the filters last, are you going to do laundry, you wanna…..?”

And I still don’t want a job outside of the home, I love that I get to be there for all the important moments of my kids lives. I can be more supportive of my husband. I get to homeschool my kids and give them hands on attention, which they desperately need. I can control their learning, in the sense that as my daughter excels I can give her harder material or when my son is struggling I can give him extra time on something.

I am constantly in a battle of sorts in my mind. I love being there but I want more than just being MOM…. my name is Bonnie.

MY NAME IS BONNIE.

I put fake eyelashes on… and immediately took them off

Homeschooling

I have wanted to homeschool for years and I am taking advantage of the insanity of the world to make it happen.

My desire to homeschool started when my oldest was in first grade the first time. He struggled A LOT with reading, writing, social interaction,  and well, just about everything.

My take away from that disastrous year was I wanted to homeschool him. I wanted to teach him in a way that he would benefit, understand and enjoy. But I was a single mom and it was my job to work.

Flash forward about 4 years and I am remarried and a stay at home mom during a pandemic where it became the “it” thing to homeschool. I jumped on the bandwagon!

I went back and forth over my decision, got input from my husband and family. Some super supportive some really hurtful. I researched requirements and costs associated. Being a one income family, I wanted to keep our costs low.

My first step was being added to homeschool groups on FB. Specifically groups in my area. Those moms have so much knowledge and experience it was great to ask their opinions. In our state it is required that we are in a homeschool association so I researched those extensively and asked for recommendations.

After deciding on an association I started to research co-ops. I didn’t even know that co-ops were a thing, (total newbie) but they are and they are EXPENSIVE. I was looking at these prices and my mind was blown. I could not afford all of that. The main takeaway for co-ops seemed to be social interaction.

Well we live in a social media day and age soooooooo I hoped on my trusty Facebook and BLAMO!!!! Playdates that are free and possibly fun for me.

So all that was left was the curriculum (and whatever supplies I needed). When you start looking at curriculums make sure your association does not require a certain one, or have it be religious (I went secular for my curriculum… I teach God outside of school). Also check what proof they require, I need calendar days tracked, and proof of their work.

So I started my search where I always start my search… Amazon… and Amazon told me that curriculums are EXPENSIVE. They were a complete WTF moment.

3 of these are ONE subject!

Enter more peoples opinions, I was told online public school was free?! Worth a looking into…. But they are all online and you are logged in for hours in front of a computer screen and you have to go at the school’s pace. For my daughter that probably would have worked, but for my son, not so much.

Back to the face place to stalk the answers about curriculums and it seemed most moms (who were not doing religious based learning) made up their own…. but how??? This is where I am semi proud of myself (the diet coke of proud). I went to the Dept of Education website for our state and found what they require!! That easy. I pieced together my own curriculum.

If you get it…..

I bought things from the dollar store, Five Below, Amazon (has digital teaching items) and I found videos on YouTube to make learning more interesting and less mommy monotonous. Teacherspayteachers.com has free downloads, they are not entire curriculums but they are some worksheets you can use to insure comprehension.

So we have been “in school” since 8/3, Monday thru Friday, except for 2 days when I thought I was dying of Corona. My son loves homeschooling and is actually retaining information. He still struggles with writing so I’m hoping to have to research how to help him there. My daughter hates it, but only because she isn’t with her friends. She is excelling and because I make up the curriculum she can move ahead.

Not every day is perfect, I am learning quickly though what works and what doesn’t for them. I am praying that we are successful and that I am showing them learning can be fun. This on-going experience is reminding me what amazing kids I have, and for that I am forever grateful.

Remembering 9/11

This will definitely not be the only homeschool blog, I want to talk fied trips and money saving tips. If you have any questions, feel free to ask. I am obviously not an expert but I have a team of them on my Facebook pages!

Whistle While You Work

Imagine that the broom
Is someone that you love and soon you’ll find you’re dancing to the tune — Name that movie

I broke the broom to the tune of my tears

Do you know the song with the lyrics “ain’t no rest for the wicked”? That seems to sum up my life these days. I am either paying for transgressions from my past lives or I have been far worse a person than I realized in this one.

I’m not living a wild or fun nightlife… I’m cleaning. You read that correctly. I am up super late at night or up very early in the morning(sometimes both) to clean my house.

And these late night/ early mornings are not maintaining a clean house, oh no. These are to actually CLEAN the house.

I have never been a person to keep things clean, I was a slob. I really didn’t start caring about cleanliness (just of the house… I do very much believe in bathing) until I moved in with my friend. She is such a OCD clean person I felt so guilty that her house was always a mess because my slob crew (2 kids and a fiancee) moved in.

That was when a new reason to be stressed or anxious joined my already impressive repertoire.

I’ve been even more stressed ever since.

The accuracy

So I lose sleep because the best time to clean is when no one else is around to bother me, ask me questions or piss me off because they are sitting on their ass while I’m running around like a chicken without its head.

I thought after I quit my job and became a stay at home mom that this cleanliness thing would be so much easier… excuse me while I pee my pants laughing. Between being surrounded by 4 slobs and 2 disastrous cats, being a pack rat, having crazy cleaning ADD, and being a crafter of so many things NOTHING ever stays clean. And I do clean throughout the day in any way my 18 month old will let me, but nothing stays clean.

So to you clean people (especially SAHMs with children home) I envy you. I want to be you, well be like you… I don’t want to wear your skin to my birthday or anything…. but I’m jealous

It just passed actually

But I need to stop writing now, the floor I just scrubbed on my hands and knees is now cover in glitter. Apparently my daughter thought filling a balloon with glitter was a great idea and the cat just popped the balloon. SEND HELP

Oh and the answer from my last post is Swan Princess