My daughter is joining the circus

Just kidding…. I wouldn’t be ok with that until she is older

My daughter is taking Lyra classes, it’s kind of like a hula hoop that hangs from the sky. Think The Greatest Showman “Rewrite The Stars”.

This is her first year taking classes and she is FANTASTIC! Obviously, I say this as a proud mama but also

Look At This Skill!!

My daughter is obviously flexible, but she is also super strong. She doesn’t look like it because she is so skinny, but this girl has strength!

She also excels at anything athletic, a skill she got from her dad. I was flexible when I was skinny, but I was terrible at sports outside of gymnastics. This girl is good at anything, she just picks it up.

If you have a child like her and you are looking for something new and fun, check your local area for Lyra or aerial classes. You will not regret it!!

She made up the choreography
The beginning of her choreography


What activities do you have your kids in?? Or what activities did you do when you were younger?

Birthday Parties Bring Out My Creative side

My son’s birthday party was last weekend, it was minecraft themed once again.

If you have kids or throw parties ever, you know they can get pricey.

I go NUTS for my kids birthday parties, growing up I always knew I would and I have.

But when you are a single mom or a household with one income sometimes things aren’t as easy to get done.

For me, that is when crafty mommy steps in.

I’ve gotten compliments on my parties so I thought I would explain my process and dish out some money saving tips.

My planning for the parties starts MONTHS in advance, so A. I can buy things as I can afford them and B. Mostly A…

I spend a lot of time on Pinterest getting ideas and taking notes, I write lists of things I need and things I need to do. I create a timeline, its intense… and literally NEVER goes to plan. But my anxiety loves the plans.

I buy supplies from Amazon, Walmart and the Dollar Tree and sometimes that is where I get my inspiration. Decorations do not have to be expensive

Those fairies are construction paper

I got branches from outside, spray painted and glittered them. I made thr fairies out of clothespins and flowers from the dollar tree. The flowers are cut up toilet paper rings stuck together. Great centerpiece and super cheap!

Black construction paper, with yellow paint pens to make the signs. Black tablecloth and star ceiling decorations from the dollar store. Kids had a blast posing in front of it for pictures!

Bandanas, when you can find them, are only $.50 at Walmart and I made the telescopes with toilet paper rolls. The kids each got one.

Minecraft

The pièce de résistance is my daughter’s Frozen party. I owe my mom everything for this party. She had the puffs in the garage and the snowflakes hanging off the ceiling are actually stickers we got clearance after Christmas. Her dress is actually a flower girl’s dress I got at a thrift store and mom dyed it and added some additional details. She also drew the Olaf free hand.

I absolutely love my kids and celebrating their birthdays! If I had a perfect career it would be Birthday party planning! But only for kids!!

Happy Birthday!!

My oldest turns 10 in 2 days and we had his party this weekend. It makes me feel old, but it also makes me nostalgic. So I went through the picture folders and watched my oldest grow up again.

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The only picture of my belly during my pregnancy with Brian.

He is over a day old in the picture, he was rushed to the NICU after he finally emerged because the cord had been wrapped around his neck for awhile. He was actually in a fishbowl for the first 24hrs to regulate his heartbeat.

My one year old and his beautiful curls! We “hacked” them off after this picture was taken and his hair was never the same

2nd birthday, he is looking stressed, lol

3rd birthday

My super sweet boy, I love his smiles.

Right after graduating kindergarten, he is obsessed with zombies and loves writing stories about them.

At 6 he wanted to be a Marine or a policeman, anything to help people

7yr old kid, still into the Marines!

My beautiful 8yr old, he was the ring bearer in our wedding!

9yr old, super great at school and just a sweet kid

And finally I have a 10yr old!

He is a wonderful kid, super creative, the sweetest kid. He is such a blessing and was a great introduction to parenthood.

I’m Not Okay

My grandmother died. She was alone in a train station on her way to visit family.

I called her Nanny and I have been struggling to write down the words about her. Actually I’ve been struggling in general.

I have been putting on a front, brave face, but I’m hurt. I can’t believe she is gone. I can’t believe that I’ll never hear her call me honey again.

I think the shock is what is getting me the most, I’ve lost grandparents; but I knew they were dying. I was prepared for that pain. I was not prepared for a call from my dad on a random Wednesday night telling me the grandmother that was only in her 70s is gone.

I’m struggling now. I can barely swipe my words on my phone’s keyboard.

She was a piece of home for me. Growing up a military brat we moved around A LOT, so we didn’t have a physical home, we had people “homes”. I’ve lost most of them now; my nanny, my PopPop, their houses and my parents.

I still have my parents, thank God, but its not the same honestly. Everybody has issues with parents at some point and I’m no different, my Nanny was my safe place. She didn’t judge me, or get mad at me, she was always proud of me. She just loved me.

I’m thankful I got her for the time I did. I’m thankful that she moved closer to us and that I kept a close relationship with her. I am glad I made a point of seeing her every chance I could.

But I miss you Nanny

I will carry you here in my heart

I’m Not Okay

Truth of Motherhood

I have seen many posts shared on Facebook about motherhood and how we (women) lose ourselves when we become mothers. They talk about the guilt and the weight gain, the depression. And that is only part of being a mother.

So much changes after women have kids, and I don’t want to demean what men go through, I can’t speak of it personally though.

Our bodies are never the same; fat in new places, stretch marks, nipples twice the size and darker. My breasts look like deflated balloons when I’m not breastfeeding.

The hormones we have racing through our bodies is INSANE. It’s similar to SC weather, 30 degrees at 7am and 70 degrees at noon, snow the next day.

The first time we hold the baby that’s been destroying us for 40 weeks is …. I can’t even think of a word. We go through the traumatic experience of labor and then we are handed this tiny human who depends completely on us. And though there are plenty of books, they don’t actually help you with your first post labor bowel movement or survive that first night home.

The love and compulsion to keep this little human safe is overwhelming. We have never felt this strongly about anything and it is terrifying. The first time they get shots and let out that shrill cry, the first time they have to “cry it out”, the first bruise/fall. Learning the heimlich for babies because your daughter is actually choking on an apple. The fear and sadness that we feel, going through these totally normal and necessary moments in our babies lives.

Our heart, or a large part of it, is literally walking around outside our body.

We want to be the best mother we can be, whether we are a stay at home mom or working mom. We sacrifice ouselves, body, sanity, sleep, diet, health, careers, all to be involved. Society tells us whatever we are doing is never enough or good enough. We push ourselves to the limit.

I wasn’t actually going in this direction when I started this post, but the blog took me here.

What I am saying here is motherhood is hard, again I’m not demeaning fatherhood, and moms if you read this. I salute you.

Next blog- Keeping Your “Self” in Motherhood

Sleep is For the Weak

I have told myself this many times in a vain attempt to satiate my desire for more.

Have you seen the memes about sacrificing something to be able to fall asleep? That is how I feel every night.

I want to sleep. I wish to sleep. I take different medicines to help me sleep, but nothing really works. Melatonin gets me to sleep quickly, but I wake up within 4 hours and I am awake for good. Midnite doesn’t help me fall asleep so I wake up groggy. Actual sleeping pills are much too strong and I struggle to fully regain consciousness. I’m not joking.

Why do I struggle?

Partly because I married a man who snores louder than a garbage disposal, I’m currently listening to it as I type.

I am breastfeeding my youngest and he has been doing this thing where he wakes up as I’m trying to go to bed, ready to play. Or… he wakes up at 2 in the morning and he brings things into our bed and sometimes in the process knocks me in the face.

I have anxiety and the quiet still of the night is the perfect time to replay ALL of the mistakes you have made in life.

Also, the quiet time is great for planning your next day and going over what you got done today and wonder if it is enough to justify feeling accomplished.

I am a light sleeper, so if my kids go to the bathroom (which is not near my bedroom door) I hear it. Or if the cats feel like making a racket.

I hear everything. And it wakes me up.

I’m so tired. And I’m constantly tired.

My current situation, he is finally asleep again. I know the picture is dark, if I used the flash it would look like Gondor calling for aid.

I have been a “bad” sleeper for years, but these last few months have felt worse.

My eyes are starting to get heavy.

Good night. But not so much for me.

L&M Unique Creations

So January last year my mom and I started a business, we call it L&M Unique Creations.

It is an art decor business and I also make jewelry.

Obviously being a new business we have been getting our toes wet, we have sold a few things. Paid, what feels like $1 million, for a website no one has used.

There have been times I thought we were wasting our time and there have been moments of great (relative to us) success.

It is only the beginning of the journey, but I have faith that we will do well.

I am going to post some pictures of things we have made and our Facebook link (we are moving to Etsy soon).

I hope you enjoy our work!

Beach in a Martini, work in progress
Does it need a caption?
Mom made this from scratch!
My absolute favorite
The first piece I sold

https://www.facebook.com/lmuniquecreations/

Our Facebook page link, with more examples of our work.