It’s not what it seems

Eric…. it’s not what it seems…. it’s not what it seems —- name that movie

I took a hiatus from blogging this summer. It was a good decision, I went to a pretty dark place. Also, life was boring.

The Corona summer is coming to an end and it has sucked. Probably the worse summer ever. We’ve been bored, stuck in the house, lazy, depressed.

To end the summer with a bang I got sick, really, really sick. I was struggling to catch my breath, I had a fever, stomach issues, dizziness, my throat was killing me, my head was killing me and I was so sore… and I had a cough… smokers with emphysema have a milder cough.

These symptoms completely knocked me on my ass for almost a week before I got tested for Covid. There were moments I thought I was going to die, I was so weak and I couldn’t breathe. I was sure I had caught the plague.

But, things were not what they seemed and it was just the flu. It took a solid 2 weeks to feel better, but I survived!

Summertime highlights:

  • I started a Beachbody program and finished 4 weeks before I fell down the stairs and broke my toes.
  • We finally laid my Nanny to rest.
  • Went to Pennsylvania for the first time in 4 years, saw family I hadn’t seen in over 15 years.
  • I went to the beach twice
  • Got to see fireworks
  • My daughter’s lyra performance was beautiful
  • Both my boys went through huge growth spurts
  • Started a YouTube channel
  • Gained a bunch of weight after breaking my toes and almost have 3 chins
  • Watched The Last Airbender and Legend of Korra, love the first and not the second
  • Watched New Girl again and realized I only watch it for CeCe and Schmidt’s storyline. Jess is super annoying
  • Got really into Twilight again and have watched all the movies A LOT and have re read the first 2 books so far

So that was basically my summer. Oh yeah it was just my birthday and I turned 36. Normally I would post a picture of my face and write something cute about how I look, but there is nothing cute about how I look right now… too much weight, acne from wearing masks, bags under my eyes from lack of sleep and my hair is in frightening disarray.

It’s been a rough summer but we are falling into my favorite time of the year. The kids and I are successfully homeschooling and I think good things are on the way!!

How was your summer?

I’ll reveal the source of my movie quote in the next blog!

The Climb, again

This is a boring post, but this is the stuff on my mind right now.

Part 2

So continuing with my weight loss journey.

After Planet Fitness I tried to fill my gym void with other gyms. I tried a place called 9 Round which is basically a kickboxing gym. I loved the exercises at 9 round, it was circuit training and they changed every time you went and it was always a GREAT workout. I felt like Rocky every time I left, I listened to “Eye of the Tiger” more than once. I am very self-conscious when I work out and I always felt like the other people there were judging me, one woman openly laughed at me when I made a mistake. I also do not like having a trainer to push me. I do not need someone to tell me to work harder, I push myself too much on my own. The trainer is obviously always there to make sure that you are doing the work out correctly, but also to “motivate”. Out of the 6 month contract that I signed and paid for, I went for 2 months… waste of my money.

I also tried Fitness Connection, which is a good price and has weights, machines, classes and even child care! I was pretty excited when I signed up. It was conveniently located between work and home, I was convinced that this was the one. I went religiously for months but whenever I went the machines I wanted were never open and people did not clean up after themselves… EVER!! It was disgusting. The people who went seemed to be the kind that show off and I felt intimidated. *SIDENOTE have you ever seen Kevin Hart’s gym show off impersonation? Go watch it* So my time at Fitness Connection ended as well.

Along with going to the gym I tried different network marketing products like It Works and BeachBody. It Works is not an exercise program, but supplements that are supposed to help you lose weight. I used them when I was going to Planet Fitness and I did really like what I saw. I just don’t know if it was the pills or the exercise or a combination of both. I tried BeachBody when one of my friends signed up to be a coach. I ordered the program 22-minute Hard Corps by Tony Horton.. It was an intense workout but it ended up making my plantar fasciitis worse and I needed to stop (so of course I lost all progress) After the physical therapy (I’ll blog about that) I signed up for BeachBody On Demand so I could try different programs that would be easy on my feet. That went well until I moved.. again… this is a real problem in my life because I am getting ready to move again.

My final attempt to use a program/product is LadyBoss, I’ll thank Facebook ads for that. LadyBoss had great recipes and exercises for home and the gym. I started strong and lost my motivation again, plus I am always doing this by myself. So everyone else is eating/drinking whatever and then there is me, with me salad.

So that was my long drawn out history of attempted weight loss. I have once again started that journey, I can’t keep buying new clothes as I gain weight, I don’t make that much money; we will discuss my dieting in another blog. This time I am not paying anyone for anything, I am working out at home or the local park that has some small pieces of equipment and I am being my own trainer. My fiance has agreed to start working out as well so we can do this together. I am going to write about our experiences occasionally, mostly for accountability. I don’t want to be that person on Facebook who has to take a gym selfie every time I am there to prove it (I have been that person before). If I know that I am writing about and sharing possibly some intimate details of the experiences then I will keep doing it.

This is a boring blog post, but this is the stuff on my mind right now. Hopefully next time I will have something more exciting, or at least humorous.