Workin On It

SO I have been working on myself, well my body since…. forever… but in all seriousness since the middle of January and I am finally really seeing some differences!!

Look at the difference!!

I have lost almost lost 2 inches off my belly and several inches everywhere else, but my ultimate goal is to get rid of my belly.

So what have I been doing to get such an amazing difference??

My gills are getting smaller!!

I have been eating about 1400 calories max and I workout at least 5 times a week, I also try to make sure that I am taking as many steps during the day as possible.

My favorite exercises are

Push-ups, I try to do 50 every night

I still do these modified

Planks, I started only being able to hold for 15 seconds and now I am up to 40 seconds each time!

Time STOPS

Flutter kicks and Leg raises

Bent over rows

Lifting dumbells sorry about the baby interruptions, he always “helps” me work out, lol

Normally my abs are engaged

Russian Twists

So that is what I have been up to and it has been quite effective. My clothes are getting loose and I have more energy. I am more confident and my marriage is definitely improving! I will be adding cardio as I actually lose weight (I’ve only lost about 7lbs) because my knees and my hips are in pretty intense pain these days.

My favorite topic

It really isn’t my favorite, but I think I write about it the most.

I have started an exercise program AGAIN…. I will have to go through my blogs to count the number that mention me losing weight or working out. I know it is a lot and as much as I try to pretend that I am ok looking the way I do, I AM NOT…..

So a couple of weeks ago my husband and I went to the vineyard where we were married. It was our first time back and I got dressed up, I wanted to look nice! I put on this blue dress that always made me feel beautiful(skinny) and I put makeup on(I don’t normally). I was dressed to the nines!! I felt amazing and I asked my husband to take pictures of me, I don’t have many pictures of me looking nice.

I thought I was looking great

He sent me the pictures a few days later and the happy bubble that I had created for myself popped. I burst into tears and I started throwing a pity party for myself. I really looked at myself in the mirror and…. gross.

SO once again I am trying working out to lose my belly, back, arm, thigh and any other body part fat. I have started LIIFT4 from Beachbody. I was doing this before I broke my toe in July and I loved it! I have doubled the weight I was using so it is much harder, but I am praying that it will be worth it. I have not gotten to the point where I love working out or crave it like a drug, but I am pushing through the sore muscles and fatigue. My bigger kids are being really supportive and they have done the workouts with me and have tried to help me out around the house because I am exhausted.

My self worth does…

I keep hoping that I can stick with the program because I need to feel better about myself. I know that my¬† worth isn’t in how I look, but I don’t really care. I want to fit in my clothes, I want to look at pictures of myself and not want to puke, I want to be proud of myself again and I want to be strong! When my husband tells me that I am beautiful I want to believe him.

I am aware that the skinny brat (who thought she was fat) I was before kids is gone, but I would like that fat lump of lard that has replaced her to disappear a little too, lol. This is said with lighthearted intent.

I have filled my phone with motivation

Have you ever lost a large amount of weight? Or finished something that you started multiple times?